yesterday was momentous.a lot happened that surprised me,strenghtened my faith and showed me the seat of god/
preeti one of the few spartan women i know,got engaged.she was looking very beautiful.i havent seen beauty like that in a long time.the other spartan women are from the same family.i got drunk with her delight.very
when people marry/its no longer about tom and harry/nor is it about that unnamed prurience/those things now/will be spoken of in past tense/lets celebrate now/though/as vicarious joys/those marbles and ponies/of girls and boys
then in the afternoon i got a peep.bambi da and bala showed me where god lives.newton and einstein/theory of relativity and the laws of motion.i never thought i'll ever regret my loathing for exactitude,a discipline in imagination.but man the earth we live on and the nature we live within is the most beauteous whole.no energy lost.things she does is all for all of us and we still want to capture the radiance of a thousand suns in a desert.destroyer of the worlds you are not,and nor are you a child gathering posies for the baptism of its pet ant.maaafaaakaaaa
i have decided im going to try and understand and respect.my atheism or casual faith are both supercilious and stupid.
but i have objections and they were confirmed.einstein was looking for that one theory of all theories that would explain everything.he didnt succeed,the rest didnt either and we are made to read the pretzel chronicles of neurotic bakers.in the sense we learn of answering faith with science.bambi da said there is a lot we do now that nature didnt want us to.she did all that for us not as ego but as nurture/sounds platitudinous.but seems true to me
so we are looking for the first cause,we have been able to explain all away,the mystery of this sphinx,but the secret of fire still escapes us]
st augustine---god is the first cause
baruch spinoza----is one sole and infinite substance of which extension and thought are attributes and individual beings are changing forms
bless this evanescence with humility
i love you 9.8m/sec sq.