im stupid and more suddenly
than how sudden it dawned on me that im stupid
i felt this cold creep on me
by the marge of the field and
i was sure of it
by the time i walked back to the bath
to cold water and disinfectant cream
that ive strafed myself a cold chill grief
grievously misunderstood
the portent in my gut feeling
and poured a bucket on this foreboding
now with fever and assorted pills
covered from head to toe
my bum to bed and nose to the ceiling
i rue this certain ill my stupidity