visible universe

I
Nobody here
Is my chronicler
To record what
I say or do
So let me speak
When I think is fit
And I will
Tell you myself
That ive taken
Surrogate delight
In the consumer’s
Early ticklishness
At owning

Ive seen
Innuendoes, conceit
blunt fare for
Suspicion of deceit
And holy men and women
Sitting around glasses
Saturated with piety

In a momentary retreat
Ive espied from the balcony
In a lower window
A dead evening resisting surrender
unwilling to yield although
bent forward was the head
for she sat her back to me
A tutor, the guardian?
With a stick

Ive been surprised by
Stealing behind on
Silent tiptoes the girl
Playing hide and seek
With toddler tiny
in pursuit wobbly knees
have been turned to putty
by the teasing so tantalising
almost within reach but
there giving you the slip

Ive lived no longer
Than a day and at night
Remember to myself



II
Whenever I want something
I went to the kali temple
Whenever I want something
Went early morning with a cousin
Whenever I want something
Stop he said. What’s that
Whenever I want something
A sacrifice. A jet black kid
Dragged to the altar and body
Flung away from it the severed head
Whenever I want something
And to Abraham he said
Give him up, give up your blood
Your flesh. When I ask
ask not why do my bidding
Whenever I want something
The unbending will is not mine